Hello all! Happy Thursday.
Ok about that previous post...things are a little out of control but all is well. I can assure you of that.
In the past week alone with myself there has been one thing I come to discover. I'm actually ok with being by myself. Pause~ Big shock! Play~ For the past couple of weeks I have been forced to pretend like things have been "ok" and "manageable." But really they aren't. Not even close. I'M STRESSED, SAD and OVERWHELMED. In this life, I have had my share of struggle but recently its all become too much. From money worries, to family connections, to work, to friendship maintenance...all the stress is looming.
In the past week, I had been forced into my own loneliness once I got sick and just had to deal with it alone. Pause~ Up until this moment, I have had someone around to check on me and/or set demands on me for rest. In general, I've just had company. Play~ And within this week, I was forced to see where I stand in terms of "coping." And really you guys, I stink at it. I guess that's the first step...recognizing that I stink at the shit.
Its funny, for the past couple of months I have felt like a lackluster person but really I have coached myself through it stating "Once we make it through this week...we are good!" Well there was no making it through the week. And really...I need to be all the way real. I NEED HELP! Like serious help! I need to have people who are willing to help me through this in every way! Consider this my cry out.
Has anyone else ever felt this way? UGH
Annie P
