Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Changes & READY!

Blog land...the day came and went for me to see my final progress from all my hard work pre-surgery! (Results below)

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(Left: January 2013; Right: April 2013)

Whats totally cool about this "transformation" is that it has been more than a weight loss journey. Naturally weight loss is the overall goal but it turned into a mind, soul and body transformation. Pause~ Stick with me here. Play~ When making the decision to get my mastectomy at this ripe twenty something age, I didn't know the repercussions that would come from such a decision. Emotionally, I felt like I had failed at taking care of cancer that I would have to do this. Physically, I was fatigued and over everything that had to do with cancer. Finally, soul/faith was at an all time low! There's nothing worse than thinking that you have no spiritual guidance or backing.        

Then it happened on a work trip to DC, I got the call from my doctor about my date options and I sat with my Life Yoda and my Courageous Dancer Pause~More on CD in another post. Play~ and told them what I had just been confronted with. And both ladies wasted no time telling me to stop bitching (literally) and do what I needed.

That next Monday when I was back at home base and I made the call to my trainer aka the Unfat Guru and said "I have this surgery coming up and I need your help." Within the week we had a price and a plan. Now the coolest thing about having my trainer is that he started as a friend. Pause~ Not going to make this sappy promise. Play~ But I say that to say, that UG isn't the best at being a lair. So when I stated my goals and then said "At the end I want to do a fitness competition." He looked at me and said "Umm..really?" Pause~ In no way was he doubting me...but being a fitness master he knows what it takes. And here he was looking at a too big Annie P who was having surgery in months. Play~ But he was totally DOPE! Post my confirmation of said statement he said "Well LETS WORK." He never gave up on me. He never let me negotiate. He never forgave me for bad eating. THAT my friends is a trainer!

So here we are four months later, 6 workouts per week, semi-impeccable eating (def a work in progress) and surgery ready!

In the end, I took a status check on my three faculties (emotional, physical and spirit) and everything pointed to the word READY!

But this post is really dedicated to those folks that always backed me up! You guys never treated me like a cancer patient, supported my fitness goals, stuck around for the insanity and never let me quit! That's what makes this journey/success yours as much as it is mine!

Totally humbled!
Annie P

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

I Think Im Working Too Much

So I think Im working too hard or am over worked. Pause~ Is there a difference? Play~ I mean I know that in the real world you have to work to pay bills and live overall but I think I am taking it to the next level. For instance, for the past three months, I have worked late and every weekend. I mean I am used to this usual recruiter grind where you work and travel and fit fun in between. However, this week I am especially drained and not happy. I am literally having a hard time deciding to when to do simple things like sleep!

I could bring this to my boss but I think he is in this "nonprofit" grind mode where he thinks that this is temporary. But in real life its not! I am overworked. Like seriously overworked. I make the necessary decisions like leaving work at 6pm but then I go home and am working until 3am and then up again at 6am to catching those last minute questions from whoever. Pause~ By no means am I comparing myself to other folks that have way harder jobs like attorneys who work like crazy. Nor am I or will I complain about the amount of money because I can live and survive on what I make. Play~ This is getting out of control. And whats really crazy is that when I left my old job and came here I made a solemn promise that I would set boundaries....SERIOUS BOUNDARIES! But here I am, overworked and really not happy with how I have let this job take over my whole life. Ugh there has to be something!!!!

Frustrated, stressed and tired,
Annie P