Sleeping With the Enemy

So I had to take some time this weekend to decide whether this post was appropriate due to the readership. However, in my "quest for all things woman" I have decided that I would be cheating myself by not posting what I need to say. So on to love number three....Acceptance of the uncontrollable things!

Recently, I had been plagued with two "tragedies" of some sorts in my personal life on every conceivable level. I had problems with my significant other and a "best friend" that really shook me to the core. {Sidebar: One thing I hope my readers learn about me is that I always profess myself as being as awesome as the people that are in my life.} Therefore, when two of the most important people in my social bubble took a serious plunge to nowhere it made me withdraw. Of course, like any human I definitely went into a day long depression in which I didn't leave the bed, prayed, ATE and searched deep deep within to see what I may have contributed to both scenarios.

Now not to dwell on the past, but this had to be the lowest point in my twenty-somethings. I had never realized how my cavalier attitude could affect those around me. I have always been caring (etc.) but to an extent I adopted a "don't care" attitude that is contagious amongst the P. family members. We live by the "go straight to your jugular" creed; meaning, if you are too sensitive to hear the truth then we do not need to be in each others presence.

However, once the smoke cleared and I was able to get up on that Sunday morning...I realized:

- Yes I have my faults, shoot everyone does, but what I can NOT do is control other people's crazy!

So I present to you all the following photo.

*Titled: Brooklyn Landscape 7/2008



As unbelievable as this sounds, I remember this day clearly. It was a Saturday and I was walking to the bus. And while walking, I had a great moment where I realized that everything I was setting out to do was getting accomplished. And I looked down this one street, I began to shed tears and decided to snap the picture. As I consider this one of my first official shots as a "photographer" this picture brings me back to a time when I just KNEW what I wanted and how I wanted it! And when I ran across this yesterday, I knew that there are always things you can control. Like this picture. I could control the stance, direction and location; but the variables (traffic, wind, people, etc.) are ever changing. So I guess my key takeaway, is that there will always be variables and not everyone (whether intimate partner or best friend) will be in your corner.

Therefore I present:

Personal Plan #1: NO MORE SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY! No more making excuses for those who wrong and/or hinder growth. We all need to get back to a place of clarity and take control.

So until next time lovebugs....

This Girl & Her Camera